Hardcore Hel, Why?

Its weird to think that a person of my age can be so totally in love with hardcore music.  I often look at my peers and wonder.. why cant I groove to Nickelback? 

Obviously this goes back to my punk rock past.  Starting with Bowie and ending with The Agnostic Front.  There is something dangerous and filthy about hardcore that to me is reminiscent of those early punk days.

With bulging neck veins and sweat drenched hair bands like Alesana or A Day To Remember get up there and ooze angst.  In a daily life of working for 'the man' its nice to step inside this screaming crashing frenzy as release.  Stepping in to a filthy sticky floored club to watch a band like The Devil Wears Prada often leaves me a bit self conscious.  I certainly don't look like I belong there.  But I am pretty sure I'm more stoked to be there than some of the kids.  I see the 'moms' in the back of the club with their Walmart handbags and sensible shoes and meanwhile I'm pulling off my earrings and shoving them in my Levi's in case I get caught in the pit.  I refuse to be mature about it.  I have and will stand smack dab in the middle of a pit willing some upstart to come anywhere near me.  Funny, no one wants to push the old lady around.  I have had to pluck the kid out of a pit on occasion, theres a jet rush of adrenaline in that. A simple rush from a mothering move.  Cool, isn't it?

A strong 'growler' can almost send a shiver down my spine.  Dennis Lee of Alesana has the most dynamic scream.  Some people find the sound of an engine running empowering, I'll take a proper scream.  Yes its noise to some but to me its liberating.  If you're going to do it- do it till your throat is wrecked.  Its a short career so make it good.

The lyrics are not as political or rebellious as the punk days.  Not by a mile.  Half of these bands are not saying anything at all.  There are a few that are rally cries but for the most part they're songs of love and hate and heartache and growing up.  Not too deep but since you really cant understand til you get to the chorus- doesn't really matter what's being said.

The look is a mess.  Half sweaty biker half basketball hood.  Really has no defined style.  That I love as well.  Punk had a 'look', hardcore doesn't give a crap. 

I will never be a fan of mainstream pop.  I suppose a part of me refuses to 'give in' to it.  I wont listen to it because its popular, that's not enough reason for me.  I pick and choose what I want out of the lot of it and that's that. 

I write tons of posts and it becomes increasingly invasive.  I find my musical choices to be private yet I have chosen to make it a mission to expose my thoughts here on a daily basis.  So when some ass calls me stupid for not liking their favorite band its a matter of me wanting to literally climb into my computer and pound the shit out of them. 

How dare you question my likes and dislikes?  Then again how dare I say you have shit for taste in music?  In the end it balances out I suppose.  But no matter what,  I am always right.

There was a time a million or so when the punks and the new wavers were actually in the same hall.  Those days is where the pretty girls sauntered off to the likes of The Go Go's and such and the less than beautys stuck it out with the dirty boys.  Maybe that its, maybe that's why all these years later I am still more comfortable in the company of ruffians than the high gloss fakes of pop.   

Now dont get me wrong I can clean up if I have to.  In the course of an evening as I write I have gone through 'Boom Boom Pow',  "James" by Blue October and "It Was Written in Blood'' by Bring Me The Horizon.  So I wont say I have musical tunnel vision- I simply prefer to be amongst the filth. 

Yeah thats it.