Teen Suicide (RIP), a band that was around for less than a year, had made a real name for themselves, grew to be one of those bands that was more popular after they broke up; I hadn’t even really listened to them until after they split, which was a real bummer because I figured that I’d never be able to see them live. I thought I was out of luck, until they went on a little reunion tour.
What was supposed to originally be at CT house venue Nicolas’ Cage changed to Bloomfield Village Pizza, the Teen Suicide/Sorority Noise show drew quite a crowd and I was really grateful that they decided that they were going to be playing two shows that night. Originally, it was only going to be at Wesleyan University, but that show was students-only, so they threw together a show that anyone could come to. I didn’t quite know what to expect, seeing TS live, but I assumed it’d be relatively low-energy, and a once-in-a-lifetime experience.
It felt like the boys had been gone for longer than they actually had, and I felt a strange wave of nostalgia as they picked up their instruments and began to play. Sam Ray, charismatic frontman, had the confidence of someone who had never even left the scene at all. As a whole, the band was tight and well-rehearsed. Despite a few technical errors in their set, their sound remained consistent and I liked it better than what they sounded like recorded. When there’s a band like TS, their ambient lo-fi emo vibe typically doesn’t translate well live. However, it was perfect, the drumming of Eric driving everything along and keeping the crowd moving. As a whole, the band sounded fantastic, clean and incredibly professional. It was also great because we were seeing Teen Suicide, a band that pretty much all of us had written off in regards to ever seeing them perform.
Someone asked the band on their blog, “why do people despise teen suicide?” And they gave a very honest response: “Because when we were active we were drug addled (half of us at least) young kids who did and said stupid shit without much regard for anyone around us, even each other, and were unrepentant about it up until a point when it kind of broke us, as a band, and me just in general. After we broke up we spent so long trying to distance ourselves from the band (or I did at least) because it was 1 such a personal project that both wasn’t really intended to reach an audience and also failed/fell apart pretty hard and 2 because I was embarrassed about the kind of person I was when we were together & chose to run from that instead of face it and own up. So we kind of alienated everyone at one time, both fans of our music and people who were just (rightfully) offput by certain interactions with us,” this really opened my eyes to the kinds of guys that made up the band, because they’re not too afraid or high ’n’ mighty to admit their faults.
“But I’m trying hard to grow up and I also love the band and music we made and the people who it affected/are still finding it and I don’t want to throw that away so yeah hence us playing shows, hence not trying to distance myself from this project, owning up to mistakes (and hoping to better them or at least myself), not being a dick to people who wanna talk to me about stuff, idk
“That’s probably a weirdly in depth answer but like I said I’ve been thinking about this a lot lately
“Also anything damning is on me (and like, somewhat on Eric – re: drugs at least) Alec and Caroline always tried to be the voices of reason to us wrecking things and lashing out etc & I owe them for that.”
I feel incredibly lucky to have seen Teen Suicide in the flesh, and love their mentality towards their music now. They said that they’ll hopefully be playing more shows in the future, and thank goodness. These “Heathers”-loving emo kings are hopefully realizing just how much the scene misses them.