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Memory Motel: Once You Go Black

43 – Once You Go Black…

Hannah stirred in Elijah’s arms, staring out the window and listening to the whirl of ambient whales sound barely below the surface after their strenuous and astoundingly unexpected love making. She looked up at him, and kissed his arm like a tree trunk, a little bewildered by the immediacy of their connection. He smiled down at her, more than a little bemused himself. So odd and so unreasonable to suddenly discover that love was possible. Not certain, and sure it was early, but  from deep conversation to more just like that. Keisha had been a lifetime after movement, a lifetime of love, but at their deepest entanglement, Keisha did and Elijah watched. But he didn’t feel like that with Hannah, immediately and completely he felt the comfort of a couple, somebody on his side, somebody who chose him at the exact moment he chose her.

And then, knowing he sounded insecure and, knowing he knew the answer, he whispered “Was it good?”  Hannah could’ve answered more, could’ve explained she could barely remember Mick and Phillip had never been her dream guy and how she wasn’t really sexually into it until now when she was suddenly and very sexual. Now she understood her Mom, now she understand that catch a flame of love, of bodies wet and on fire at the same time.  Of how something had been missing and then it wasn’t missing at all. The whole and the part and the portion. The deep something… but she stopped herself and Hannah just said, “The best ever…”

Elijah lay there smiling, happy in a way he had never been happy before and then he saw Keisha right in front of him, and she looked angry, and then she was gone.  Elijah felt his heart drop, that scary feeling when you see a ghost, or hear a noise in the middle of night. He felt as though somebody had shouted boo in his ear. But Hannah didn’t notice anything, and he just considered it for one moment and decided to himself, “Guilt, it is just guilt…”

Keisha disagreed .

39 – Once You Go Black…

Hannah stirred in Elijah’s arms, staring out the window and listening to the whirl of ambient whales sound barely below the service after their strenuous and astoundingly unexpected love making. She looked up at him, and kissed his arm like a tree trunk, a little bewildered by the immediacy of their connection. He smiled down at her, more than a little bemused himself. So odd and so unreasonable to suddenly discover that love was possible. Not certain and sure it was early, but  from deep conversation to more just like that. Keisha had been a lifetime after movement, a lifetime of love, but at their deepest entanglement, Keisha did and Elijah watched. But he didn’t feel like that with Hannah, immediately and completely he felt the comfort of a couple, somebody on his side, somebody who chose him at the exact moment he chose her.

And then, knowing he sounded insecure and, knowing he knew the answer, he whispered “Was it good?”  Hannah could’ve answered more, could’ve explained she could barely remember Mick and Phillip had never been her dream guy and how she wasn’t really sexually until now when she was suddenly and very sexual. Now she understood her Mom, now she understand that catch a flame of love, of bodies wet and on fire at the same time.  Of how something had been missing and then it wasn’t missing at all. The whole and the part and the portion. The deep something… but she stopped herself and Hannah just said, “The best ever…”

Elijah lay there smiling, happy in a way he had never been happy before and then he saw Keisha right in front of him, and she looked angry, and then she was gone.  Elijah felt his heart drop, that scary feeling when you see a ghost, or hear a noise in the middle of night. He felt as though somebody had shouted boo in his ear. But Hannah didn’t notice anything, and he just considered it for one moment and decided to himself, “Guilt, it is just guilt…”

Keisha disagreed . “I’m going to kill him,” she hissed to Billy.  “First I’m gonn scare him to death and then I’m going to stop this entire fucking tour and then I’m going to kill him and everybody.”

It was 18 months since Keisha and Billy had found Elijah in that hospital room and in all the days in between, the couple had lived in a strange half lie when Keisha kept an eye on Elijah but not as closely as she might have and Billy never left her side, especially at night where they spent the time upside down on the ceiling looking for positions not yet in the Kama Sutra.  Keisha didn’t bother with the contradiction between her relationship with Billy and her relationship with Elijah. If she’d have been more self aware perhaps she’d have left Elijah alone and taken Billy with her and gone to the Aftermath. But she didn’t, she wanted them both and while she still thought maybe she loved Elijah, another part of her wondered if, t the last moments of life, she had simply wanted to love Elijah. The idea flicked on and off, like a torch in a child’s hand. Billy wanted to discuss it, wanted to confront her, but ghosts were a funny lot. They had issues so bad that they remained in a static position, a world of half light, of being neither nor, and so having two loves in her mind at the same time was in keeping with her personality. And Billy knew enough not to capsize it.

“He saw me.” Keisha snarled. “How can I get him to see me again?” Billy didn’t answer. “Come on, should we ask Tacoma.”

Billy shook his head vigorously. “Absolutely not, we won’t get anything out of him”

“Silent as the tomb, right?” Keisha snarled and Billy smirked in response.

“So what is going on? What do we do next?”

“I have friends, more forthcoming than Takoma. More morally easy going….”

“Let’s go.”

“No, we need to decide what we want first.”

“I mean let’s GO go, If I look at those two for one minute more I’m gonna puke.” They were back at Cosmo’s drinking coffee in the corner. “How do we stop this, Billy.”

“Do we want to?”

“Absolutely we want to. I want this shit stopped now.”

“Do we know what’s happening? I mean the Stones are gonna Ghost Tour and if they make it the Universe doesn’t come to an end for another coupla billion years and if they don’t, Goodnight Vienna.”

“And we’re gonna stop em.”

“OK, but how. You wanna go against God?”

“Absolutely.”

“Then think, this is a kind of bet right? Like one or the other side bets, and that being a case, there must be something betting against God…”

“And we need to find them.”

“Exactly, who is the opposition? Who is the bet with? It seems to me God is insuring his win while everybody else twiddles their thumbs and we need to wake them up.”

“Can we get tp heaven and warn them.”

“It’s not heaven, it’s…”

“I don’t give a fuck what it is, can we meet with them?”

“it’s a damn good idea… I have a friend, he is deep in other worlds of ghost stuff… maybe…”

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