The talented and controversial rapper Azealia Banks posted and then deleted a series of alarming posts and videos on her Instagram account that should worry all her fans. There were at least two black videos (saved below by a fan) where you could hear her talking about ‘voluntary euthanasia’ and not having ‘any more defense’ with a very tired voice, as she may have been under the influence of something. She sounded like someone at the end of her rope, asking for someone to take care of her dogs, explaining ‘I just don’t have like the mental capacity to care for them right now.’ She also said she needed ‘some time and some space,’ and needed to ‘lighten my load for a second just so I can make sense of things’ while she had ‘to simplify as much as possible right now.’ The least I can say is that she is not doing well and the messages Azealia Banks posted could even imply she is suicidal:
‘Yeah, I think I’m done here. This pandemic, extreme lack of social interaction, no intimacy, combined with constant public ridicule is making life harder than it’s worth. I think I will end my tenure here on earth soon.
I’m not begging for attention or asking for sympathy/empathy. I’m just ready to go. Peacefully of course. I will document my last times and release a film for you all to finally understand me. From my perspective.
My soul is tired and I’m ready to go.
I will try my best to finish the projects I promised I would beforehand. With whatever strength is left
Please don’t bombard me with messages. I am not in pain. I am at peace’
Anyone who cares about her should worry about her life. Yes, she is known for her public altercations with an incredible number of musicians and celebrities, yes she is known for being a giant troll on social media, yes she is known for saying the most controversial and inappropriate things, from admitting she is ready to vote for Trump (because he is a piece of shit) to attacking Elon Musk on Twitter (and advising him to dump Grimes and date Billie Ellish)… she can be extremely funny in her wild style.
Unfortunately, I don’t think these messages are funny at all, and they could be the combination of her mental imbalance combined with social isolation forced by the pandemic, she is indeed talking about the lack of social interaction and intimacy. For someone who is constantly craving for attention, and who thrives on stage, these times must be very difficult.
If people on Twitter are divided, and if some are asking for someone to check on her and help her, others are claiming a big callous ‘I don’t care’ or even worse: ‘Azealia Banks as far as I’m concerned is a racist, pro-Trump, self-hating bitch (who also hates black women). If she thinks it’s her time to go, then maybe we should show her the door,’ wrote @Andy_fudging_B on Twitter
Some are rightfully noticing how differently we react toward another mentally ill rapper, Kanye West, who has also supported Trump by the way and even mentioned slavery in a more than derogatory way. I actually think Kanye is always far less ironic than Azealia, who is offensive, but who often tells the truth. So why the difference? Because he is a man and she is a woman? People are making all kinds of excuses for Kanye who is the subject of plenty of pity while Azealia is ‘troubled’ and ‘problematic.’
Mental illness is not a joke, I hope she is okay. She is really talented, I saw her live just before this pandemic, and if she made us wait forever, she was pure fire on stage. Did someone check on Azealia?
These are some of the messages that Azealia Banks posted on her Instagram account:
Here’s what she posted hours ago, the video isn’t long enough but she said a friend visited her to check on her then went on to say this : pic.twitter.com/dqltFwRDFF
— Buck (@TheBucklictic) August 9, 2020
She is clearly in a very critical state right now and needs somebody that will support her and help out. I’m not in the US, so please anyone in LA go reach out to her and assist her pic.twitter.com/JNcWZRnDGo
— Buck (@TheBucklictic) August 9, 2020
simultaneously self-effacing and egomaniacs
essentially a disco remix of “Rocket Man” featuring one of the the UK’s biggest stars…
“I literally really need you to jump up and down”
Friday night might kill us but Thursday evening is a blast
it just isn’t the triumph she needed after six years
an impressive sonic ride.
a high-spirited Post Pandemic anthem
a memorable band who were never better than here
almost Pink Floyd-esque